Poem for #58

The chemistry between us was powerful enough
Until you pushed it forward

Our connection was secure in its confidence
But you were insecure

In your hasty objections of letting me in
You lied to me

Your hunger of my body
Repelled me

Your darting eyes, against the background of noise in your head
Left me gasping for air

At first I craved your attention and affection
Now I gag at the thought of you

Poem for #50

Resentment lingers between us
I should have kept
The fantasy of you
Your reality was frigid and isolated

I had not stepped into allegiance
Until I kissed you
What a grave mistake
Incoherence in our aspirations

Your autonomy, insisted
I faded from you
The first of many rejections
You would not let yourself in