Poem for #5

Towering over you like a vine, I kissed your head
Embarrassed by the size difference, we walked on a hill
We shared a coke and you thought it was a kiss

The adults looked at me with disappointment that night
All the boys at our church looked with confusion
You thought that I adored you, but I just liked attention

The next week I found out you carved my name in the gym wall
Something about the obsession really turned me on
So I kissed you behind the church that weekend

I met someone older and taller, so I broke up with you
You punched a hole in a wall at the church
A couple years later, you punched my boyfriend

Poem for #13

In that sweet illusion of faith, I met you
Your masculinity a draw
Throes of passion in the backseat of a church van
They watched us in secret jealousy

When I was sick
You brought me a rose

We kissed with intensity, but it faded quickly

I still remember your jaw line
Your mouth
The strict angle of your nose
The darkness of your eyes
Secrets about your family
Those memories a standard I held other men to

We jumped over the boundaries they laid for us
And you felt guilty about that

I was a dark temptress in your holy light
Everyone blamed me because you caved
Pure lust
Sin

I never went back to that church again