Poem for #60 - Poem 1

Your kiss is a curse of unrelenting mystery
Those lips are supernatural

Your hands are weapons of the divine
Those fingertips, surreal

When we meet in our realm of the gods
The atmosphere shatters between us

I am frozen and liquefied
I am still and kinetic
Together we are creation

Energy, vibrant and tangible, moves from you
I reach out to taste it

There is a remedy that drips from your soul
I am thirsty for it
I lap it up

If you leave me alone on this earthly plane
I will desiccate

Poem for #57 - Poem 3

The image of your arms
Wrapped around my legs
Tossed on your shoulder
Unforgettable

The seductive tension
Of waiting for you
To get off of work
Undeniable

Teasing you with words
A lunchtime rendezvous
We’ll meet for dinner and dessert
Insatiable

Poem for #51

Here I am again, wading through the mess of my ambitions
The obligations I have attached myself to, pain me
In the intoxicated mess of my unreachable desires
You came to me

Deep and smokey eyes froze the chaos that night
A seductive smile teased my opportunities
The masculine strength of your hands, guided me
I came to you

Our pretend marriage cleared paths on busy streets
We danced without moving our bodies
A synced communication dominated their words
We came to them

I teased you with the jealousy of another woman
I forfeited you to her desperation
Your disappointed grin, sank me
I left you

Poem for #27

Yes, come over and make me feel warmth
Touch my skin
but
don’t get near my heart

Be charmed by my difference
my strange advertisement
I’ll pretend to not know
you are only playing a game

Make me feel

My mind will be in a far off place
cigarette burns and broken hearts

But lets share a Nat Sherman
on my front porch
and
Forget everything else

You are temporary
You are a toy
I am coded
You are direct
but
We are both telling lies

We only want the comfort of another body
Lets give that to each other

I told you I wanted to be told I was beautiful
So you told me so

You wanted to be alone with me
You teased me
I tease you
I will never let you in

but tonight
and maybe once again, soon
Come over
Touch me
Kiss me
Caress me
Enter me
and we’ll never speak of it again

I don’t want your friendship
I don’t want your heart
Only your soul
Just one night

maybe two

Poem for #9

I played damsel in distress to get your attention
It worked

Nights of a moonlit lake
Hands clutched together
Floating in the depth
We kissed with our heads above water
As our bodies danced below

I found poetry in the atmosphere
You knew nothing of poetry

Days of scorching Florida sun
Boiled peanuts
Grilled corn
Ice cream floats

Riding behind you on a jet ski
My chest bouncing against your back

We snuck away to secret coves
Canopies of trees and moss

I was attracted to your father
I tried to seduce his attention
You were oblivious

I ignored you the day I meant to say goodbye
It hurt

Poem for #11

Your music cleared a space within me
Where you fit perfectly
I demanded your exclusivity
I had to wait

The dark green monster rose within me
When I saw you with Christine
I confronted you and stole you away
You were willing

I had never witnessed time freezing
Until you chose to kiss me
I asked you to repeat it the first time
To remember

We rode on a wave of innocence
Poetry and pure lust
Timidly, our bodies touched each other
Never enough

We snuck kisses wherever we could
Heavy desire for more
The tension was pulsing between my hands
A fearfulness

The temptation to go all the way
To put a seal on our love
We ached with poetry in those moments
Couldn’t do it

My frustration grew heavy and dark
You recoiled into yourself
I physically demonstrated my rage
Left you with scars

You began to fail at everything
The disaster was brewing
Forced to move away and distance yourself
I cried so hard

For two long months you left the country
Every day was slow for me
I feared what would happen when you came back
All sleepless nights

When you returned you didn’t call me
I knew then it was over
But I needed confirmation from you
To hear your voice

The phone call from you that ended it
Was short, quiet and too cold
I could see my heart fall into pieces
I was speechless

I organized your birthday party
Though you didn’t want me to
I sat on a couch, completely ignored
In tears, heartbroke

I walked into the room where you were
Engaged in conversation
All my deep pain showed itself violently
I was kicked out

One month later you were with Christine
I was furious and hurt
I tried to make you jealous one day
A small false show

I ended up marrying that guy
Whose love I flaunted to you
You ended up marrying someone else
And now, a baby

We finally met on pleasant terms
In our creativity
There is a pleasure in our memories
My first heart break

Poem for #13

In that sweet illusion of faith, I met you
Your masculinity a draw
Throes of passion in the backseat of a church van
They watched us in secret jealousy

When I was sick
You brought me a rose

We kissed with intensity, but it faded quickly

I still remember your jaw line
Your mouth
The strict angle of your nose
The darkness of your eyes
Secrets about your family
Those memories a standard I held other men to

We jumped over the boundaries they laid for us
And you felt guilty about that

I was a dark temptress in your holy light
Everyone blamed me because you caved
Pure lust
Sin

I never went back to that church again