Poem for #60 - Poem 2

Your heart is caged in by her absence
The pain in your eyes illuminated by her name

I want to bind your wounds
I want to flush your poisons

You speak on her acquisitiveness
Her cupidity, revolting

You ache from her infidelity
Her betrayal, a lesion

Her egotism
Her materialism
Her superficial piety
Why don’t they rebuff?

Your perfection is astounding
The depth of your creativity persuades me

The heights of your spirituality, transfixing
Your compassion is implausible

I want to know all of you

I stagger to understand
Why she renounced you

I lurch further
Speculating
Why the queen of paltry matters
Holds your profound heart

Poem for #57 - Poem 5

I selfishly wait
For your return
Though I pushed you out

I cannot deny
The piece of me
Shaped like you

I attempted to break into your library
Of feelings
Dog ear my page

Kiss me on the neck and make me smile
Laugh and roll your eyes
Be intoxicated by our disgusting attraction

Unwind the fear from your heart
Let loose
We can be ok

Talk to me endlessly
All day
About nothing

Show me all of your world
Take me to your home
Carry me to mine.

Start over
Rebuild
Reconnect
Go back
Come back

You are incredible
I am foolish
I am touched by you

I still miss you
Every day

Poem for #57 - Poem 4

My mistake
Plagues your mind

Your desires
Deny you something beautiful

I have broken the flow
Of what is
Or was

Broken shards
They are not so small
That we cannot
Pick them up
Find matching parts

What I cannot imagine
Is your reality

Poem for #4

White hair and blue eyes deceived me
Telling me I was worthy of love
I believed that I could be

A great shock to my self-esteem
To find my heart was held as a joke
They laughed when I cried for him

His flirtations were merely acts
The boys snickering in the background
“She thinks someone could like her”

Poem for #11

Your music cleared a space within me
Where you fit perfectly
I demanded your exclusivity
I had to wait

The dark green monster rose within me
When I saw you with Christine
I confronted you and stole you away
You were willing

I had never witnessed time freezing
Until you chose to kiss me
I asked you to repeat it the first time
To remember

We rode on a wave of innocence
Poetry and pure lust
Timidly, our bodies touched each other
Never enough

We snuck kisses wherever we could
Heavy desire for more
The tension was pulsing between my hands
A fearfulness

The temptation to go all the way
To put a seal on our love
We ached with poetry in those moments
Couldn’t do it

My frustration grew heavy and dark
You recoiled into yourself
I physically demonstrated my rage
Left you with scars

You began to fail at everything
The disaster was brewing
Forced to move away and distance yourself
I cried so hard

For two long months you left the country
Every day was slow for me
I feared what would happen when you came back
All sleepless nights

When you returned you didn’t call me
I knew then it was over
But I needed confirmation from you
To hear your voice

The phone call from you that ended it
Was short, quiet and too cold
I could see my heart fall into pieces
I was speechless

I organized your birthday party
Though you didn’t want me to
I sat on a couch, completely ignored
In tears, heartbroke

I walked into the room where you were
Engaged in conversation
All my deep pain showed itself violently
I was kicked out

One month later you were with Christine
I was furious and hurt
I tried to make you jealous one day
A small false show

I ended up marrying that guy
Whose love I flaunted to you
You ended up marrying someone else
And now, a baby

We finally met on pleasant terms
In our creativity
There is a pleasure in our memories
My first heart break